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he died before I could become successful again, that I've lost more money than I'll ever be likely to make again, that I made it all from nothing, not business schools, just me selling posters on a street corner and then on to bigger markets and better customers, that it's so hard right now it makes tears well up, the tiredness and the sleepless nights leaving every part of my body aching and every nerve & emotion rubbed raw. I'm upset because my girlfriend could really use the help I can't offer her, because I'm too tired to make love to her the way I want to, because her father's an asshole who won't let her go and because she loves me unconditionally and I can't even offer her proof of mine, not physical - she doesn't care about that - but even just emotional depth. I'm burning out and the opportunities that keep presenting themselves keep getting screwed up because I keep saying yes to everything. Because ultimately I've just failed and been broken at the age of not quite yet 29, and nothing will ever be the same again. I've done the right things and the wrong things but always tried to do them for the right reasons. Leaving aside the ethics of it all and given that I don't care a damn about the morals of anything that's happened I've honestly tried, and succeeded in being a good person. And it's chewed me up and kicked me around for so long now I'm just ready to give it all up. I haven't had a holiday in 6 years, never had a day off sick, always covered all my bases, paid back all the debts I had to the people who mattered. The only debts that didn't matter were the ones to the bank and they'll get it all back some day.

I'm one of the best salesman in the world, honestly I could sell morning after pills to your grandmother, tupperware to your punk-goth daughter, coffee beans to your Mormon cousins and now I'm so totally and utterly screwed, so devasatingly tired and used up I don't think there's much left of the person I once could have become.

Life's unfair to all of us with varying degrees of unfairness doled out to each of us, what changes is how we deal with it.

Do better than I did. Don't fall as far, don't isolate yourself so much and remember that you are the future of someone else's happiness. Let go of the need to be certain, never let someone tell you you're wrong without wondering why they'd say such a thing.

Realise your limits and stick to them: Sometimes it's worth speeding up if you'll get a chance to slow down but just stick to what's comfortable and accept the limitations of your humanity. You are the greatest hope I could ever have and to help you I would expose every nook and cranny of my mind.