i feel like my dad is ignoring me

I've lost the person I love the most... ...forever.. ...all my own fault.. ...I dont know where to turn, what to do, never felt so alone. Cant eat, sleep, clean myself, wanna lock myself in my room for the rest of my life. Im such a horrible person, life is wasted on me, i dont deserve to have one.

i'm upset because my sister just left home to be with her husband im all alone now

one of my family members isn't well and i'm scarred about my belongings etc when i die

It's my birthday in 4 days, and no one really cares. I'm not being over dramatic- my friends seem to be more interesting in bitching about each other rather than spend any time with me. My parents don't seem that bothered either to be honest- I'm not even getting a cake. I know it's stupid because I'm nearly 20 but this is the one day of year that's about me. I've been pretty stressed with uni work too and I could do with a break from essays and the STUPID arguments my friends have!We're supposed to be having a "big night out" on Friday, but it's not for my birthday. I wouldn't mind but I put in effort for everyone else's birthday, yet it doesn't seem to be the same back.People tell me I'm too nice- I won 't tell my friends/family how I feel, it's just not my nature. Sometimes, I seriously wonder if this is how my whole life is going to be like. This whole birthday thing has really upset me. But I suppose I'll juts have to get over it.

my family loves me. they love me more than you.

i am so embarassed and i feel imperfect and flawed on so many levels

My blackberry twitter account won't let me mention my new best twitter friend! Life is so unfair and sad!!!!

So, I've got this guy friend whom I like and one day after being super sick I check my phone. I've got two missed calls from him. Panicking I type, "Mkay, so I just looked at my phone for the first time today and I've got two missed calls from you. What's up?" It's been almost two days with no response. What did I do wrong!? He always responds right away and maybe I'm overreacting but I'm upset and worried.

ive had the worst birthday ever ive only had 3 presents and I don't like them