Nothing I ever do is right or just "good enough". Especially when it comes to my mother. I have a book reading app on my phone, and my son and me were reading books on it. He started messing around with toys after telling me that he wanted to read another book with me. I start the book, he's messing around, so I stop the book. He starts complaining about me stopping the book. I ask him if he's gonna behave and pay attention to the book, then my mom starts lecturing me about "you're not interacting with him positively, and his room is the only place he has to play. If you're just on your phone and ignoring him....." blah blah blah. At that point I just gave up, there's no point in trying to explain what was going on cause she wont listen anyway and just tries to find something I was doing wrong so its my fault. I told her I wasn't ignoring him, cause I wasn't. I have a f--ked up, sideways, dysfunctional relationship with her. And I struggle with anxiety, so I hate being here. About 90% of the time I spend here, I just want to gouge my eyes out with a fork, rip my ears off, or go jump off of a very high place. I hate being here. She just makes me feel like crap most of the time. I will be doing something with my son, he will start acting like a butt, I will correct him, then she yells at ME. She doesn't even know what's going on 97% of the time csuse she's either not in a visible premises where she can SEE him being difficult, or she's not here at all. So she yells at me unjustly. Makes me absolutely batty. I just want to run away where nobody can find me.