I met a couple of wonderful girls and one hasn't replied to me for three days now and I complimented the other one and she made clear she wasn't interested in a relationship with me which my friend had primed me up to ask her out the day before.
I have high expectations and a fear of failure. Because of this I just have to keep running... fast.
I wonder if it's taking away from what life is supposed to be. I love music and art and people. I'm crazy about this girl, but I've also neglected what used to be our relationship. I'm in search of colleges, taking tests, and spending nearly every other minute trying to get ahead of "the game". (and on top of all of this maintaining some form of a social life.)
Maybe I've become so consumed by this socially constructed idea of success that I've lost sight of what truly matters and, to a certain extent, I've had to pay the price.
Maybe I'm going in the right direction. "Opening doors for the future" as my mentors might suggest.
Alongside that, there are so many directions I could head and paths I could take and I'm afraid I won't get to take them all.
DO I LOVE WHAT I AM DOING OR NOT???
Maybe one of you guys can relate.
Because I want to join cheer and I thought my mom was ok with it but know she barely has any respect for it
I feel too lonly I wanna do something different or be someone else not me...
Life is tough .people criticise me, I understand but I can't fight more. Feeling tired..
I'm always upset, it's nothing new. The guy I thought who loves me and the family I thought would protect me and the friends I thought would support me, they all let me down.
I have no friends and I don't feel safe and happy with my family and not with my guy either but I don't want to leave him and I can't leave my family and I can't make new friends either.
Now, depression is like a part of me, I always feel so unwanted and terrible that sadness is like my personality or a trait.
I have a big headache right now and I wanna cry
I just dont understand how you can love a person so much without them knowing you even excist, I love this girl, she has it all, and I was going to talk to her, but then I found out she already where talking with someone else..
i wish social media would go away :(
fuck youtubers & viners they aren't fucking celebs i hate that i have to know who all of their flop asses are they fucking suck they piss me off and so fucking mad rn wtf
but really they aren't celebs so stop treating them like them even pewdiepie isn't really a celeb fucking stop